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I just came back from 1st my nite shift.. And oh yes.. If u must know.. This past week I failed my TP again for the 2nd time.. People give Jonathan a round of applause cause he was too impatient with a bus and decided to try overtaking it.. And in the end he failed cause the tester claims he made the bus take an evasive action to avoid an accident.. -.-" What the hell!! Pick on me sia!!!! Zzzz.. Ohh.. Wells.. Next time i shall dress up as some gal and show sum boob and maybe he will let me pass! Asshole!! Stupid bus driver.. Accelerate when I was overtaking him.. Zzzz.. Bastard! LOL!!!

Ohh wells.. The Geylang NPC people are a frenly crowd.. Of course there are those who seem the non-approachable kind at first look... And those who are the super frenly kind like yours truly... Who will start bullshitting non-stop the moment they meet u.. So it took sumtime to click with everyone.. And they were all amazed by my Dr Jekye and Mr Hyde transformation from a 107 kg beast to a 75 kg awesome dude.. They saw my 11B.. HAHAHAHA!! So either way... Weekends are hell at Geylang for wad we all know it best for.. Zzz.. But thank God for this.. http://www.straitstimes.com/BreakingNews/Singapore/Story/STIStory_481191.html So ytd wasn't tt bad... But the charge room i expect will have hell of a day.. LOL!!! The amount of papers they will have to put up for that 170... ZOMG!!! Either ways.. Amazingly.. It was bloody quiet ytd.. But okie lah.. We had like 4-5 messages.. And one stunning one... Secret act so im not divulging anything on this space.. :D:D:D

Patrol work is so much more fun than sitting at a dumb desk with a pen and a stapler who will happen to be ur best fren thruout the 2 years of bullshit.. Im sorta wondering if i shld extend.. LOL!! Hmmmm.. I shall think abt it and discuss with the important people in my life.. :DDD

Ohh wells.. Every week I have sum entry about life and this week is no exception.. This week is about relationships.. Yeah.. Im so in love with this song called "The Day I Fall In Love by James Ingram".. So a little bit on James Ingram.. He has one of the most soulful voices I have heard thus far.. Go to youtube and do a search on it.. And u will probably be blown away by his God-given voice.. Honestly its amazing.. He's the average black-that-can-sing-soulful-music kinda guy.. Think Boyz II Men, Lionel Richie, yeah u get the point.. :D

Well the lyrics went sumthing like that... On the day i fall in love the sky will be a perfect blue and i give my heart forevermore to sumone who is just like u.. It paints a very beautiful picture doesn't it..

Whilst "Sometimes just ain't enough by Patti Smith" went like that, but there's a danger in loving somebody too much, and its sad u know it's your heart you cant trust, there's a reason why people dun stay where they are, baby sometimes love just ain't enough.. Paints a bleak picture doesn't it.. U can actually picture a guy seating at a bench watching the clouds go by knowing that love doesn't conquer all..

So all in all relationships are complicated things aren't they?.. When two persons are in love, they can really make a lot of sacrifices for each other.. Especially when both parties are willing to give and not just take.. The relationship then becomes like heaven on earth.. But if a guy has given so much for a gal and vice versa.. Love just ain't enough.. That love will eventually turn to bitterness and eventually hatred.. Isn't it like the extreme end.. Like u go and order chicken rice and u get like beef or mutton rice instead.. Christ.. Can we make things a little more simpler... ZZz..

And when u like sumone u begin to doubt if u should take action.. If it all screws up u might end up losing another fren.. And of course when it goes the intended way the sky will be a perfect blue and u will hear the birds chirping away lah.. LOL!!! But u gotta be willing to take tt risk.. U can either up in heaven or hell.. Being realistic ain't it.. But this is life.. HAHA!! I've been hearing this alot recently: Life's a gamble.. HAHAHA!! *sigh* But if u keep on being their friend it just tears u up from inside doesn't it. Its so near yet so far kinda thing.. And when she goes thru heartbreaks... Ur heart breaks along with it.. So in the end it gets all complicated doesn't it.. If love is really that powerful why cant it conquer all?..

On the surface u are like brothers and sisters.. But deep down ur feelings for her are so real.. U can try covering them up.. And burying them.. But eventually they will come back to haunt u.. When she smiles u smile.. When she cries ur heart bleeds along.. When she feels lonely u are there to give her company.. When she feels scared u are there to protect her.. But at the end of the day.. U are suffering silently.. When u see guys hitting on her.. and knowing she cant be with u.. Its in human nature to feel jealous.. But yet u encourage her.. Is tt love?.. I have no answer man.. And i am still searching for it..

Then in "Why (Are We Still Friends) by 98 Degrees", the song goes like that in the second stanza.. I would hate for you to find somebody new.. Who you really love, cause it would mean losing you, But am I a fool girl not to say.. If I'm always scared I'll lose you anyway.. Somehow somewhere I've got to choose.. No matter if it's win or lose.. And i think it makes sense.. Either way.. Its just another fork road in life.. Sumthing u gotta choose.. Gamble for ur future happiness.. :))

Oh wells.. As much as this post opens up so much questions on relationships.. on love.. I hope it answers sum too..

Okies peeps im off to Zzzzz.. Cya.. :D